Shai Smith, I love you with all my heart. I would die for you. I have never been scared of losing someone in my life. You gave me a life I never had. You make me so happy. You took me from a dark place in my life. I used to be so depressed before I met you. I had no one. But now I have everything. You and your family has gave me everything. Y’all have helped me out. Gave me a place to live, food in my stomach, taught me how to handle money, gave me a family that cares, and helped me get a job. I couldn’t thank you enough. And there will be no way I can repay you. But as long as I’m alive I will always be here for you and your family. in the beginning I promised you a perfect relationship, I lied. Nothing is perfect. But I promise to try my best to keep you happy and love you forever. Nothing will ever get between us. I love you baby. Since day one. My feelings will never change.
You have missed 19 years of my life. You let drugs control you. Take you away from me and my brother, even my mother. She had to work 2 jobs and take care of me and my brother, while going to night school. Do you know how hard it is for us? Do you know what we have thought for years? We always thought you didn’t want us. But to be honest you was just a sorry ass kid that never grew up. I gave you a chance the day I turned 18 to prove that you have changed and it didn’t last a week. Drugs ruined you and your family. I felt like shit seeing you so high that you didn’t even know who I was. I had to leave you in the hotel. I haven’t seen you in 2 years since that day. All I know is that I will never let anything get in the way of my wife or kids in the future. I will always be there for them no matter what.
“I hate you. You ain’t shit, but I love you. Don’t nobody else make me mad as you; but when we makin’ up though I’m glad it’s you..”
